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After I resigned from my first job, I intentionally took a month off to rest and reset before diving back into job applications. During that season, I began a daily prayer walk from 5:30 to 7:00 p.m, right as the sun was setting (because I love sunset). While I was praying, I remember uttering in my prayer “Lord, bring me to company where I can learn more and grow more with my career”. Three months later, I got a call from a consulting firm for an interview.
Before that, I had already made a checklist to guide me whether to accept the offer or not, and out of that list, only one had made it through - the two days off on weekends. Then I sought the Lord, because I didn’t want to fall behind on my bills. I prayed that if they reached out again, I would accept the offer. And yes - they did and I accepted it. Then gradually, day by day, I started to feel the weight of the narcissistic environment.
Shouting became a daily routine — our employer wouldn’t end the day without yelling at someone, regardless of who was present.
Insulting words:
“You are worse than the previous admin” - This was the first insult I received from him.
“You are useless.” - Said after I tried to edit the email he was supposed to send to the client.
“Who are you to be called by another company” - Remark made after I submitted my resignation letter.
Blaming - I was blamed many times for mistakes I never made.
Distrust & doubt - he questioned every payment, doubting the amount and hesitating to release it, which often led to delays.
Unreliable manager - I remember asking for help from a manager who had been in the company for more than 15 years, and she would often reply with the same line: “I don’t know.”
Even though so many negative things happened, God turned those experiences into opportunities for growth and learning.
I began asking God daily for wisdom, guidance and understanding to be able to do my job well and avoid being shouted at by my employer.
I used the slow hours wisely—to learn, improve, and make the most of the opportunities right in front of me. I learned to smile and find joy even in the middle of pressure.
I practiced focusing only on what God has placed before me today, instead of worrying about tomorrow.
I developed the discipline of doing my best, even in the smallest tasks assigned to me.
There are moments in life when we question God about why we’re in situations we feel we don’t deserve. But when we shift our focus to His goodness, we begin to see how He can turn even those moments into something good.